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woaaazz...haha today was inter fac rockwall..saw some very pro climbers in our school!..wow..haha..hidden talents...great improvements, record times, etc. wooohoo.. (: funfunfun. got a problem tho..tmr's my bro's bday, (no present yet!!!) and i've got inter fac rockwall (so gotta leave early) but i want to watch drama feste also.. cos on friday got problem..cannot watch on friday cos got sir's birthday celebration thingy.. both of which i really want to go for...howhowhow..solutionS!..i demand a preview of the drama feste!..haha..NOW..NOW..NOW.. kk wadeva..haha.
anyway, i had a very informative train journey home.. learnt a lot of interesting stuff...bout stuff i never really thought of before.. religion is truly unique....thanks nizam.. aaand now i'm sitting at home, (i bathed already!...one of the rare occasions..arent yu proud of me?..) kk..and i'm so tired.haha. i got ipw stuff to do, maths assignment that's overdue, and...homework...tutorials (which i prob won't do...violation of Green Leaf Policy!!!)
anyway here's a great song (: listening to it now..doesnt it just want to make yu....jump up and move around. haha. i'm mad... going mad... grrrrrrrrrrr!.. haha
Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.
Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.
Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.
Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(away. away, away...)
"swing swinggggggggggg!!!!"
jumping jacks. this weeeks gonna be a busy one.. weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!...wooooohoooooooo!!....
woa.. today had odac pt..haha havent trained in such a long time. we did like..sprinty stuff.
i'm looking out, on life. a mystery's forming, something i can't decode. i've got to puncture it now, before it grows bigger. bigger..and bigger. before it..suffocates me. and let's me drown in my mistakes and let's all my successes sink..sink to the core, where nothing but heat is felt, and e pain is so unbearable, even death can't match it. or rather. the effects of death.
this is gonna be a lot of description. bear w it..ahah.. or skip it.
so i'm in school now. what a friday.
there's something wrong with my tagboard!..i can't see it!..wwhiiiinneee.. bleah
wwwwwwwwwwoohoooooooooo
AHA i finally found out the origins of this song. it's such a great soongggg!! wooohooo
yikes..fell asleep on the train..and yeah i think i like kinda half-slept on this woman. dumb. she didn't seem very pleased when i finally woke up..cos it was my stop. oh well. i've been really tired recently.
on second thoughts, mebbe life isnt that great.
my BRO totally ROCKS!!!!!
just remembered something.. i was helping my bro fix up some stuff in his room.. he was making like...temporary shelves with his old skateboard boards. like wadeva. and then like he had to adjust this picture frame thingy. then he like put the string at like reallyyy small angles to the horizontals so i told him that " the tension's so great, it just might break" [sorry but i was erm..in the middle of studying physics for CTs when he called me to help him out] yeahhh then he was like..really amused..and he accused me of trying to rap. haha. the tension's so great, it just might break.
okay..schools started as usual. got back one paper..maths. barely made it to a D. doesn't sound good at all does it. dunno wads wrong w me. i should totally be doing okay in maths. but i guess i deserve it. firstly, i didn't rush the paper..i was taking my time, secondly, i attempted each qn as it came, so wasted a lot of time doing rubbishy qns that weren't worth the marks OR time. yeah i scoofed myself. nuts.
take a chance,
haha yeah i forgot the BIG in that phrase. it's actually, Get away from me you big grizzly bear!!
hellooo!
CTs are nightmares. only if yu let yourself fall asleep... esp during lectures AND tutorials.. -nita
and live goes on, for that's life, and that's the way it's gotta be, cos we have no control over the outer realm, which causes this world to spin n spin...gently out of time.. really?
there were liek..so few of us today. oh well. the rest had like ipw..or sick..or had to do some stuff. yeah. oh welllll.. it was quite fun. haha..altho tiff, n mel, we didn't activate our plan in the end. haha. not bad la, had fun today. glad i went, tho i was feeling reallllly dead just before odac. i was like..falling asleep talking to jen and yee yen. very sorry bout that. yeah..but osmething happend..sleep..overwhelmed me
haha.
anyway, yeah tmr's inter fac floorball..weee..fun.. haha. hopefully..we win?..yeah hopefully. and hopefully i don't get muscle aches tmr..i took extra precautions and stretched a lot after pt. haha.
okay tmr will be another fun time, w the odac pple, and nice nice pple too. and sch. and it's a short day. and hopefully all ipw work gets sorted out.
btw andee kamya n nizam are nuts. was a psychotic msn convo i'm having w them..haha..oh well.
k i should go and bathe. -yes i'm sitting here stinking myself up- scoof it la..haha. okay then..g'nite all.
well. yesterday was definitely the obverse of friday. it started in the morning..at an unearthly hour of seven in the morning on a NONodac day. yu can imagine how early tha-at is.
yeah so anyway i was supposed to meet sau and nizam at ymca macs for our stoning cum homeworking session. haha my dad dropped me on his way to work at orchard mrt..so i decided to take a bus down..then i overshot..and i had to walk back..and i got so lost..had to ask for directions from more than 3 pple. yeah. they were...relatively helpful..finally i found my way there. so yeah i was late by like....25 minutes..and sau had come..10 minutes before me..and nizam was EVEN later. haha. (as usual? :D..kidding.. )
yeah so there i learnt genetics (: and i did my chem tutorial..all but one qn..cos like..the graphs werent there n i didn't get them from andrew on fri, so i had to go home n check the tys.. (which i have yet to do..tsktsk...green leaf policy violatn.) yeah then we went for lunch, but sau had to rush off for a meeting.. yeah. then nizam n i went to the nat lib... did yu know, they provide services like..they'll research and try and find books or articles that are relevant for yu. that was amazing. tho the queue was super long..actually it wasnt long, just that it takes time for the lady to do the research for yu...yeah..then kamya called and asked me to go for this american universities exhibition thing at suntec..so i said okay..cos yeah i thought that we were ending like..soon..at the lib. yeah then andee joined us at the lib. cos he was bored. walking around bugis aimlessly?..haha. yeah then we decided to all go for the exhibition..so yeah by the time we actually left the lib, it was quite late. (sorry kamya..)
so then we like..walked to suntec...crossing like..grass..and drains..and..God knows wad..haha. interesting experience. (btw while walking to the convention centre i felt incredibly short walking next to andee n nizam. 2 tallies of the yr or something. had to like...find places to walk on that made me look..relatively less short. hah. well..that's hard to understand. i need to GROW. taller.)
anyway..yeah we were..greeted rather 'nicely' by kamya at suntec. hahahah.. let's just say..it involved a lot of..fingers..or..one in particular?..haha...nvm bout that. it was..funny. haha. yeah then we had only like...45 minutes to walk around n see all the universities. quite overwhelming actually. there are..SO many..and yet..all of them are probably SO hard to get into. i shall go for that august 2nd one, and consider my options. sigh. tho it feels like i shuold not be thinking abuot this so early, i can't help it.. it's MY future. haha.
yeah then we slacked around suntec..and by the time we decided to go home..it was quite late. haha. i affirmed a couple of things along the journey to the mrt, 1. there IS a mrs fields in citylink. 2. yu must always watch the mrs field's lady pack your biscuit, cos chances are she'll give yu the wrong one by mistake. haha..poor kamya. 3. all brother's shuold be as nice as andee and buy food home. ahEM. bro are yu there?..haha kidding la.. yeah..
yeah.. so then we finally got onto the train..after a lot of..stopping and meeting pple..n going into hmv..and..everything else..
then in the train..we met azi and pam!..talk about coincidence. yeah...haha. but azi got down like..2 minutes after she spotted us. pam was really amusing. haha. and our nice frienly feller we met in the train actually gave up his seat for pam. that guy was a real nice guy. haha altho we all didnt know him. long story. yeah. haha..so journey was filled w more laughter.. then we all went to tampines.. for dinner. spent a really long time at tampines mrt.. -long story-..yeah pity pam couldnt join us for dinner. she had dinner at home. :) next time. yeah then AT tampines..after dinner we had a very heliumy experience. haha. another long story. -helloo- (in helium voice.) woohoo. haha
it was really a fun day. then kamya came over to my hse..i followed her home to get her stuff n her dad sent us back to my place.
sigh..i was really exhausted man..by the time i got home..i felt like..i just needed to sleep. but of cos, the leafiness hasnt taken full effect. i hadddd to go online for a while. -addiction-
yeahhh..that was the end. hahaha.
at the end of the day, i was talking to daryl online, and yeah..something felt strange..like.. how is it that on friday, it seemed as tho nothing could ever be the same again, and then on saturday, yu meet up w a bunch of great pple and yu have lots of fun..so much fun yu've never had in a longlong time. and then at the end of the day, yu realise that, sometimes, things arent really the way it is.. i think.. altho we were having fun, at the back of our minds, we were still fully aware of wad had happend the day before, and we were all still worried for all our affected friends..and then i don't know. i don't feel guilty for having fun, i think, i just wonder why..there was this strange feeling in me when i went to sleep last night.
anyway to all those who are affected by friday's news, i want you to know that if you need help or someone to talk to, i'm here.. and that i care for all of you, and i'll pray that we'll all overcome this together..
for life is short and it deserves to be cherished.
in short. saturday was a wonderful day. thanks to sau, nizam, andee, kamya, and azi n pam. in sequence of events. :)
yu'd think that something like this would never happen to anyone yu know, anyone who studies in the same school as you. the whole's school's like grieving silently, i don't know how to explain it.
this sucks. the impact one person could have on everyone else is so hard to understand. it's unbelievable.
i can't help but wonder why..why it happend..
anyway, floorball was really fun today..tho i missed defending like some shots.. i couldnt stop THAT one goal they scored!.aaa...oh well. haha but we still won, and it was really fun..and odac rocks too. haha rockwall was like really really fun!..wooooohoooo!
anyway today was a good day, school itself was fun.. and then after that i went to orchard w dawyl..ahha very interesting tho i'm not a very good formal clothes picker, sorry dawyl!..haha..glad you found a good top anyway.. aaanndd wahh it's damn hard to resist food in the face..
alright, gonna keep this short..quite hard to multi-task..chatting, on the phone, blogging, checking mail, and d/ling songs.
sigh
ahha..i am a green leaf..i am a GREEN leaf..i am a green LEAF. i am a GREEN LEAF..
g'nite everyone i lovvvvvvvvvveeeee alllll of ya'll. haha..erm..nvm
"whyyyyyy does the sun go on shining?....whyyyy does the sea rush to shore? don't they knowwww it's the endddd of the world.."
when will the fog clear,
when will my eyes see yonder,
when oh when
will i begin to bother?
why do i keep on slacking,
why don't i know,
why oh why
don't i want to stop scoofing?
how will i know when to start,
how will you give me the sign,
how oh how
can i stop being a lazy old wart?
wwwwwwooooohoooooooooooo
Forever and For Always - Shania Twain
In your arms I can still feel the way you
want me when you hold me
I can still hear the words you whispered
when you told me
I can stay right here forever in your arms
Chorus:
'Cause I'm keeping you
forever and for always
We will be together all of our day
Wanna wake up every
morning to your sweet face always
And there ain't no way
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't now way
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day...
(I wanna wake up every morning)
In your eyes (I can still see
the look of the one) I can still see
the look of the one who really loves me
(I can still feel the way that you want)
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me
(I can still see love for me) I can
still see love for me in your eyes
(I still see the love)
I'm keeping you forever and for always
I'm in your arms
to love is to know when to let go -from man and boy.
that book was really nice, and i've got to go to the nat library and get the sequel.. i realised how much i love reading again, glad i'm finally re-starting. i kinda lost it during sec school.
i need to find myself again. i don't know wads becoming of me..i think i'm losing myself. finding nita. yeah. finding nemo. finding nita. great.
just realised that i didn't blog in a really long time, and i havent read other people's blogs in a really long time either..
and i don't feel like blogging anymore. is it really an outlet of expression?.. then take this.
my grades are all so scoofy.. i shouldnt be where i am now, it should go to so many other pple who deserved it cos they studied so very much harder. cos they worked so very much harder. cos they yearned it so very much more. i'm a disappointment to noone but myself. NOONE but myself. noone but MYSELF.
btw this entry's so messed up. only cos it reflects exactly how messed up my mind is. doesnt quite make sense huh? i wish i could fly away..up up and away.
be strong, mon ami.
i love him man!!!!
he just brought home an entire DRUM SET..haha but he's very protective over it..it's near the living room..WOOHOOOOOOo
all i need to do now is get him to teach me to play properly!!! WOOHHOOOOOOOO
and odac rocked today, love all odac pple, haha they make running so much easier..and climbing so much more fun!..wooohoooooo haha and thanks to all the other encouraging pple on the track today. haha..
i love e world!!! woooohoooooooooooooooooooooo..
anyway, i think that's how it's gonna be for the next few months..the tension's so great, some of us just might break. there are loads of pple i know who've been really offset by disappointing grades cos of the common tests. just wanna tell them, it's not the end, there's still time before the promos, and tho teachers make it seem like as tho the promos are in like 3 days, it's acutally 3 months. so everyone, calm down, there is still hope. [btw haha i think i'm reassuring myself]
so anyway, i've got odac tmr..rockclimbing..lead climbing..how fun. looking forward to it..yeah..and there's prob gonna be PT..hope i don' t die, havent trained in ages, i think i really need the pt anyway. alrighhttt looking forward to tmr!.. greaaattt..think i'll go home after odac and like..sleep, and then...see wad i'm gonna do about my study life. after all, i was supposed to have an OG outing to zhu's but think it was postponed..yeahhh
alright g'nite all..
the clock's run out, time's up...snap back to reality
plus i got back my mcq for physics..just failed..14..and got back mcq for chem just passed w an 8. sigh. i'm scoofing up man. this is NOT right. i should get back on track soon. just hope i manage to pass everything. highly unlikely, but let's just say i don't wanna fail more than 1 subj. gotta buck up. but i just can't seem to stop falling asleep during lectures. i really really do try but i can't make it la. damn hard to concentrate in a cold lt, w the lecturer just droning on n on n on. sometimes it feels so gooood to just close your eyes and take a break and before yu know it, sleep overwhelms you, and yu're thrown into this world where nothing can bother yu. right until someone nudges/pokes/talks to yu or the lecturer comments on sleeping pple. i just cant help it. or can i?
right now, i need a jacket. to keep me warm. then i need this never ending sweet to suck and suck and suck. chewing gum mebbe? yeah.. mebbe. i should try and get hold of some. wonder who my supplier will be. bernard!..or chuen kang!..haha. we'll see. okay great. let's see how well my techniques work next week. tmr's like... no hope. no time to prepare.
and sau, the whole diet thing and money thing didn't work!..i borrowed money from pple to buy stuff. plus i even had an apple like yu said i should bring. still was hungry. but then agn, it was a 510 day. but still, i think i saved some money.. instead of spending 8 bucks on food like wed. yesss there IS hope.
haha okay then i'm ending off here, i'm sleeping early today, right after bacholerette.. (i watch for ryan. haha..yeah yeah wadEVA..) g'nite all.
any suggestions on keeping awake? i'm all ready to try new methods. i think i'll develop a guide to staying awake in LT one. yes.. my sequel to that shall be, how to pay attention during tutorials. yeah.. i bet pple will find it useful!...haha..wadeva..
let live,
for even when the moment's gone,
there'll be the memory there
just like a dance..
went out to city hall today for comm meeting. quite interesting, but i forgot to bring my wallet. bleah. thought i'd just leave and go home when i needed money but in the end i ended up borrowing from dawyl. yeah..thanks sista. yeah then went to eat lunch w odac guys..kenny rogers gives HUGE servings..i couldnt finish lor. but they have this meal that's highly worth it. 790 bucks for like this big sandwich, a corn muffin, soup, and two side dishes :) yeah. but couldnt finish la..that's the problem. yu gotta be..very hungry or something. haha.
lasted me all the way till afternoon, then i met nurie and didi for lunch..well i didn't eat..haha i watched them eat..but it was nice talking to them la. temasek frens. haha wait..actually nurie's my pri sec and jc fren. oh well. haha. and py6.. okayyy.. :) and then nurie gave me back my 10 bucks!..ahha didn't know she owed me money but that was a nice surprise. haha. and yeah i didn't spend it!..so proud of myself!...weeee (: yeah then we went to parkway...shopppinnggg..haha. didi's so cute. haha.
i realised that window shoppping can be quite satisfying when at least yu have a friend who's buying something, then the whole idea won't seem so pointless. shopping's fun. haha.
alrighttt should end off now.
i've gotta help my daddy..count marks..haha he's marking papers.. oh well...byee (:
anyway..yeah the syf opening ceremony was really really good.. aaaand guess who i met there?? ahhaha JEN. yo jen (: haha i can't believe that i met yu there and that we both didn't know each other was going. haha.
updates of the day: i finally upgraded my phone. got the six one o o. gorgeous phone.. haha. couldnt resist myself. i mean i was totally going to get the six six one o..but yeah i couldnt help it!..
okay i've got meeting tmr at city hall.. gotta wake up early.
i'm going off now, gotta sleep man.
notice my entries are getting shorter. oh well. nothign much to say la. or..can't be bothered to type it. dunno la. oh well byeee..
weeeee. i just got back from my stoning cum sleeping cum reading session at holland v with my stoning club, a subset of odac. there were the conversers too, but they were conversing. haha. yay..starbucks is a really nice place to just slackkk. wooohoooo!
ahaha wad a great day. i'm going for syf opening ceremony too at esplanade!..esplanade..so cool (: haha i love the esplanade. will prob see the rj dance pple, haha i didn't tell them i was going.. only knew yesterday..my dad and mom got tix..somehow.
anyway, common tests are all over and it feels all normal and stuff again. yay i'm happy man. hahahahha. but i just found out from dawyl that results will be out next week!..haha that's like damn fast!!..hahahahaha. hope i don't do too-ooo badly :D
anyway, yeah i can't wait for school to go back to normal and resume again. so fun. odac and slacking and everything.. weeeeeee.
as yu can tell i'm in a good mooood :D i loved today. haha actually it was just a normal day but starbucks was such a nice stoning area, and the sofa/couch was so comfy, and then washing up equipment in school was fun too!..tree climbing, plus monkey bar climbing plus swinging. hahah.
okay i gtg, kinda late, but thouht i'd blog first..gotta go batheee
cya later!
and hahahahah
and charlie's angels was hilarious! hahaha.
"get away from me you grizzly bear!!" (that kid was damn cute...ahhaha)